June 2011
Last night I fell asleep watching Jackass Number 2, and I wake up this morning reading everywhere “Jackass star Ryan Dunn Dead” I thought to myself, “NO FREAKING WAY!” At first I thought it was a joke but then more people starting reporting about the accident, and it just broke my heart. Yes I did not know him, but I remember being 12 years old and walking into the living room and my dad watching Jackass. I grew up with the show and the movies and I have never laughed as much when I watched them. There’s something hilarious about watching a group of random guys go around doing stupid stuff.
Well, back to the title of this blog. Dunn was only 34 years old. THIRTY FOUR! That’s so young. Yeah I’m only 20, going on 21 and you think to yourself I’ve gone through so much crap in my life, been shit of and stepped on so many times in my life, blah blah blah. People my age, younger and older complain “oh my life sucks I’m never going to amount to anything.” Umm well yeah you’re not because you’re sitting around complaining about it. I admit, I do the same thing but half the time I’m only saying it to make myself feel better. Why, you ask? well if what is happening in that very instant is the worst thing that I think could happen, life can only get better than this and it has the ability to be SO much better. I look at everything I have everyday and I just say a little thank you to whoever is up in that great big sky we live under, and to my father. If it weren’t for him I would not be the person I am today. I wouldn’t have the goals, dreams and ambitions I have if he had never busted my butt and told me to get out there and do some shit.
We all forget how short life can be and sometimes I stumble upon the thought, “What’s going to happen to me when I die?”“What’s going to happen to the world and people I know?” It scares the living day light out of me thinking about it, but life can be over in an instant, literally. Having a father who is ill scares me so bad, I try to put it out of my head and think it’s just an everyday thing and it’s no big deal, but in actuality it is. If he doesn’t take care of his body properly every single day it could start crapping out and limbs could be lost. I know it’s a slim chance, but you just never know. Which is why after every single time I see or talk to him I let him know how much I love him and everything he has done for me, the same goes for my mother.
No one knows what’s going to happen next, which is why a lot of people live by “Live like its your last day.” Go out and party, get wasted, hook up, get in some crazy hole you can’t dig yourself out of. Yes, relatively that sounds all good and fun, but would you really want to spend your last day blacked out acting like a complete fool? Now I am in NO WAY saying drinking is an issue because I like to partake in such activities from time to time, once in a blue moon, but my every weekend, day doesn’t consist of it. If I were to die tomorrow I would be proud that my last thought for my parents was a good joke and I have told the people that matter most I love them. But goodness forbid nothing happens to me anytime soon.
The reason I decided to write about this is just to remind myself that life is short, and I need to embrace what I have and be happy with it. I can only go further from here, and make sure I’m happy. So just remember to tell those that matter most how much they mean to you, no matter the circumstances.
Hi there people in Tumblr world!
I highly doubt any person will ever read this blog, because that’s my kind of luck, but I was bored this lovely Father’s Day and thought to myself “what is this blogging thing all about?” Well, here I am discovering the blogging world.
What this blog is, or well I’m hoping for it to be, based on my life that is oh so random. Not even kidding. The things I do, my shopping adventures, things i’m obsessing over every week, etc.
Now that I’ve said that, a little about me. I’m currently a senior studying Marketing in Austin, Texas. I love taking pictures, doesn’t everyone (?), and I have a passion for everything that is life. People say I’m kind of funny, but I haven’t tested that out yet. I’ve taken a couple courses on photography, mostly 35mm film black and white photography, which I consider to be the best type of photography out there. Yes digital has its own wonders, but film is mysterious. You don’t know how the photo is going to come out after developing it.
Oh yeah, I go on tangents very often.
In my life I’ve had the chance to travel a bit and I would love to continue traveling and experiencing different cultures. I’m an avid music listener and the genres in my ITunes is all over the place.
I have a small addiction to shopping. Not only for clothes but just about anything. Which I will also cover in my blog.
Ummm.. I guess that’s it for now.
Have a splendid day!