One can never have enough beer

I would give anything to hear her voice again. To hear her laughter again. To hear her fuss and my mother and aunt again. To listen to her amazing stories and words of encouragement and wisdom.

I would give anything to see her beautiful smile again. To see her in the clothes she makes herself. To watch her putting in her rollers for the night. To catch her feeding my dog when she’s not suposed to.

I would give anything to have back memories. From the times she would stay with us and she’d have to sleep in my room because we didn’t have enough bedrooms in our house for everyone. The times I’d ask her to scratch my back until I fell asleep because my eczema was acting up. For the times she’d wake me up in the middle of the night because she was either talking or praying in her sleep. The times I’d sit with her and talk about everything,

I would give everything to take her pain and suffering away and put it on myself if it meant she’d be ok and not struggling.

This woman is my grandmother. She is a lovely and beautiful person. She is the only person who can kick my butt and make me feel special at the same time.

So many people take moments like these for granted. I never did and I never will in the future. You never know what you have until its gone or almost gone. So please, don’t take anything for granted. Every moment is special to you and the other person. 

This past month has been one giant whirlwind after another. First I had a pretty shocking event occur in my family that caused me to stop and realize that life is short. I almost lost the one person I love more than anything and anyone in the world and I completely lost it. I’ve never become this close to losing someone I’m really close to, and let me just say it is the worst feeling in the world. I hope no one goes through what I did for these past few weeks. I felt empty, that nothing mattered anymore. I only cared about wanting to see this person but suffering because they were 7 hours away and I have so much school. But I know this person would be PIIIIIIIISSED if I skipped school.
However, the little amount of time I did get to spend with this person before I had to leave was so amazing, I love this person so much more now. This person is the strongest individual I know and has helped create one wonderful, close family.